Tuesday, May 7, 2013

The Comedian

When I'm high on depression
And bursting with rage
I've got this face of happy,
That makes love to the stage

You like it
But it's deceiving,
I fear it,
These thoughts I'm conceiving

I'll play it out for you,
This maddening dance,
You'll clap and you'll laugh
At my circumstance

I bow and step down
And become me again,
But all you'll ever really know
Is the comedian


This is an older piece that I couldn't post on my other blog. Did I tell you all how good it feels to have a place where I can just be me again, unfiltered?!

I'm not "Smiley" every day...but I sure am trying, and I'm definitely surrounding myself with people who want the same for themselves.

3 comments:

  1. So glad that you can just be you!!

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  2. When I was first divorced, I came off the road after a particularly bad day delivering mail, had had several calls from the day care, was running late and had just found out the parents were selling the house I was currently living in. I relayed this all to Tony in one full exhale (we barely knew each other at the time) and he looked at me and said "And... you're still smiling?"

    Truth is, I smile though all of it. The only ones who really know are the ones that live with me.

    Well done Miss Steph.

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  3. Dear Stephanie, for many, many years--until I was at least 40, I played a role for others. I was such a good actress that no one knew how truly neurotic I was. Nor did they know that I was hallucinating every day. It was a gifted psychiatrist--Dr. Nimlos--who helped me stop acting and encouraged me to show my real self to others. And when I did, my friends embraced me. Peace.

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