Weighted

She waited for what was around the corner.
Good things?
Bad things?
Honestly, she had no idea this time.
She just knew something was coming,
Her heart was tethered by anxiety.
Her body felt restless and tense.
She craved human touch,
Anything to soften the grip.
This was all very real to her.
She connected to the unknown...
She waited.
She felt weighted.

Sense of it All

I closed off for a while.
Said my peace.
Waved goodbye
To the fun girl who smiles
And nods,
And pretends she won't cry.

I didn't, you know
Break down,
Hit the wall.
I merely stopped
Shut the door
And made sense of it all.

Move Along

I have this need to write, and then I finally get to sit down


And nothing!


So here goes, and hopefully what I need to express will flow from my fingertips.


Giggles is away at camp for 10 days. It's been so quiet in the house it's strange. Even having my mom in the house doesn't fill the ceilings and the walls with the laughter that kid does. My mom closes on her house today. The move from Albuquerque went smoothly and I'm glad to have her here.

I'm not going out with Manly anymore. Can't say that I shed tears, but it is strange being completely alone with no prospects. I'm taking a break from dating. In the back of my mind I'm thinking, "So how long do I have to go being happy with just being me before I put myself back out there?"

Manly was only here temporarily, and his job ended sooner than expected, plus he didn't want to move to Dallas permanently. I can't blame him, he lives in Colorado and LOVES it there. Plus he wanted to get some of the tougher assignments with the FAA (air traffic controller) before he retires (he's 49). So I said goodbye to my sexy, bald man. Oh boy, I miss how good he smelled and how fun he was.

I'm all over the place with what I'm writing, so if you're still here I'll ask, "Why?!!!"

Move along, I've got nothing deep to say.

...but at least I'm still Smiley Daze...that doesn't seem to be going away, and I like it.

Hope you are too.